2005,  I was at a time of despair.  I lost my boutique, Walmart acquired the building where it was located. My house went into foreclosure, and my boyfriend; my son's father was cheating on me.  To make matters worse, I found out he had another baby.

(Our son wasn’t even one yet.) Oh, did I mention I was broke.

More-so I was BROKEN.

 

I was broken: Mentally, Spiritually, and Financially.  

 

I had deep, lingering thoughts of suicide. I wanted out. Out of this crappy world I called life.

I was angry. I was depressed. I was disappointed. I was vunerable. I was lonely.

 I felt hopeless. I had low self-esteem . . .  I was so lost.

I felt like a failure.

As I fast forward my life, I realize I was repeating the same old stinking habits.

The reality was, my pain didn’t start there, it went way back.  My issues were deep rooted, back to the broken little girl.

 

The Ah Ha moment . . .

Then one day, it just hit me, I had to have a Real, Raw, and Honest,  convo with me, myself,

my soul.

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 I was a mess! . . . and I knew it.

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For far too long, I lived in the shadows of my FEARS,  and my "FEARLINGS" realizing that it was getting me nowhere.

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I had unresolved pains of the past that were blocking my greatness.

 I even had the A, B, C,’s of pain to show for it.  

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(pain for every letter of the alphabet, including X, Y and Z.)

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 A- Abandonment and Abuse; Mental, Physical, and Sexual.  and D - Death. 

The death of my father at 6 years old and my mother being accused of murder by his family . . .

I just couldn't continue on like this.

I was spiritually drained, mentally, and soulfully emptied.

I decided to do something about it.

                          I no longer allowed excuses to override execution in any area of my life.

                 Thus the alphabetical healing journey began .  . .  

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